teach me to be

I find myself on a plane quite often these days, which thrills my heart to no end. I’ve been making my escape ever since I was a little girl. Open door? I’m going through it. Open window? I’ll press myself … Read on…

please stay

As other mothers sent their kiddos off to the first day of school today, I made my way to the place where my son died. I haven’t been there since Mason took his own life. I couldn’t go, couldn’t be … Read on…

filling holes

I’ve been on a purge bender lately and I’ve never felt more clarity. Bags and bags of trash, gone. Trunk loads of donations for the Goodwill, delivered. It’s a cleanse of epic proportions and I’m really enjoying myself. Something clicked … Read on…

buen camino

My heart has heard the call of the Camino and I am responding. Today, I leave for the big walk, the ‘Camino de Santiago,’ beginning in Leon, Spain. I am carrying my belongings on my back and braving the trail, … Read on…

moments pass

Sometimes we find ourselves in a tough moment. Maybe we created it; maybe it was imposed upon us. Either way, it’s a bad one. We all have bad moments. Sad moments. Scary moments. Sometimes we land in a good moment. A … Read on…

a place on the map

A friend of mine calls it itchy feet… that feeling he gets when it’s time to go Walkabout. It’s a restlessness that begins in the heart and metastasizes throughout the soul. A niggling thought that if left ignored, can become … Read on…

let it go

Christmas is my favorite holiday. Was. Christmas was my favorite holiday. I’d deck the house from top to bottom with Christmas décor and my home became a winter wonderland. I remember pulling into the garage one afternoon, sometime in April, … Read on…

suicide mom

Sometimes, I think I get so distracted with thoughts of death that I limit my ability to focus on life. When I realize I am doing that, the pendulum swings radically in the other direction and I am determined to … Read on…